As you might’ve noticed, I’ve been slowing down quite a bit since this year started.
I wanted to talk about that.
Actually, I don’t want to talk about that, but I was told that doing this would be a good thing, so here I am.
For all the new people, Hi! My name is Kari! Pleased to meet you (read your comments). I started doing this a little over a year now, in october of 2017 and I’ve always found fun in sharing the stories I translate.
I love reading your comments, feeling that someone is grateful for something I do.
For those who don’t know, I’m 33 years old and I recently opened a store, truly with your help and the help of my patreons.
Opening the store led to some changes on my life, not really bad ones, one the contrary, really good ones, since I got to spend more time with my family (I’m closer to them than before). But that also led to some bad experiences.
Now, for the reason why I’ve been slowing down, the short answer is depression.
It’s been a little over a month since I started going to the psychologist to treat it.
It’s been very hard these past months, I’ve lost all motivation. I’ve been sleeping for over ten hours each day. I havent eaten properly since god knows when. I havent opened the store many times.
In short I’ve been feeling lost.
Enough to say that I havent had the motivation to do translations either. I really want to, I love to, but sometimes I just can’t.
Depression is hard to explain, at least for me. I’ve talked to friends and they cheer on me and such, but even so… sometimes I just want to stay on bed and let the days go by.
I dont want pills that mess with my emotional state, so I declined medical treatment. What I’ve been doing are therapy sessions with my psichologist. It’s been slow, but I feel like I’ve been improving a little from what I was before.
I talked with her about you, about my followers here, those of you who enjoy what I do and this is something she told me to try. To simply talk to you, to not run away and tell you the reasons why I have been lost.
I cant keep running away from everything. I promise you I’ll try my best to overcome this.
Work aside, this too was a responsability I took when I started translating. I dont want to just suddenly drop translating.
Also, thank you. I thank all of you who go out of your way to write a comment. I’m also a reader of novels and most often than not I dont comment. So I really appreciate it.
Thank to my patreons, current and past ones. You’ve given me more than I deserve, but it’s also thanks to you that I’ve been able to keep moving forward.
And thank you, yes, you, for reading this post. For letting me share my feelings with you.
Oh god, I’m crying…
And this isnt even emotional…
I’ll give my best, please bear with me. I’ll try to deliver more chapters soon.
In the meantime, I got a couple chapters done, so I’ll post them.
I’m sorry, and thanks.