The abused merchant’s daughter – 42 | Sousaku – 創作

Chapter 1, Episode 42: Feelings (3)

"Mother!! What's going on?! "

　I heard a voice.
　A voice I didn't want to hear.
　The voice of someone who always abused me.

　I turned around in fear―― There she was ...... my cousin Sharla.
　Sharla was there with a strange man for some reason.


　……I have to kill them!!!!

　Scary, scary, scary!!!

　If I don't kill them, they will abuse me!! I'll be locked in again!!!
　They do painful, painful things to me every day, they don't allow me to sleep, they don't give me anything when I'm hungry, and they just make me stand up.

　No!! No!! No!!!!

　I try my best to use my saintly powers to kill her, and Sharla says it hurts and hurts, but she doesn't die at all.
　And now even my aunt, who used to torment me, comes out.

　Scary, scary, scary.

　Help me, help me. Farne-sama. Cyril. Libelle. Tree spirits.
　Where is everyone!? Where are they!?

　You promised me we'd be together forever, right?
　Cyril said she would protect me.

　Even though I used all my strength with the powers of the saint, neither Sharla nor my aunt died.
　I broke them, and kept on breaking them, but they always went back the way they were.
　Why why why why!?
　Cyril said no one can resist the power of a saint, right?
　So why don't they die?

　I crushed them, crushed their bodies, their faces, their legs and hands, but they came back to life.

　Both Sharla and my aunt said something to me.
　But I was scared, so I pierced their whole mouth with light.

　Help me, help me, Farne-sama!!!

　I miss you, I miss you, I miss you.

　I'm scared. I'm scared. I'm scared.

　I can't stop the tears from overflowing.

　Why isn't anyone coming to my rescue?

　Am I a bad girl for not losing my memories? Is that why nobody comes to help me?
　Is Riese a bad girl?
　Is it so wrong to not want to lose the memories of Farne-sama?

　Should Riese be better off dead after all?


"No, that's not true!!! "

　When I closed my eyes, I heard a voice.
　The voice of my beloved Farne-sama.

　I looked toward the voice and saw Farne-sama standing there.

　Farne-sama, whom I have wanted to meet for a long, long time.

　Farne-sama. Farne-sama. Farne-sama.
　I am sorry. I am sorry.
　I'm sorry I didn't lose my memories.

　I reached out to Farne-sama as hard as I could.

"It's all right. You don't have to worry anymore."

　Farne-sama. Farne-sama.
　I know I'm a bad girl, but please, please don't hate me.

"I am sorry about that.
　I didn't think about how you felt……"

　Farne-sama walked toward me, saying that.　

　I missed you, I missed you, I missed you.

　I love you, I love you, I love you!!!!

　Please don't take my memories away from me.
　Don't take away this feeling that I love you Farne-sama.
　I am very happy and I will stop killing people!

"……Yeah. I will no longer force you to do anything.
　I was…… very wrong…… I am sorry."

　Farne-sama's hand touched my face as he said that and held it out while crying.
　At that moment, Farne-sama's body glowed.

　I am relieved when he hugs me tightly.
　Thank goodness it's Farne-sama. It's Farne-sama. It's Farne-sama.

　Farne-sama is an angel after all.
　The angel who wraps me up in his arms.

　Because I feel so much safer when he holds me in his arms.
　I am not afraid. I am very happy.

　I love you, so don't leave me alone again.
　Stay with me.

　If I'm a bad girl now, I'll become a good girl.
　Even if I don't like people, I will do my best to like them.
　I'll be a good girl.
　Don't take away from me my love for Farne-sama.

　This is the reward that Mama gave me.
　It's a proof of my hard work.

"Yes. I will never do this again.
　I promise.
　
　……Really, truly."

　Farne-sama began to say something and squeezed me.
　Farne-sama seemed to be crying as well, trying to say something but not saying the right words.

"I love you. I love you, Farne-sama."

　I say it with my own mouth.

"I love Riese, too.
　I love you. I like you. You're special.
　We'll be together for a long time now.
　Let's create lots of happy memories from now on.
　Look at the beautiful rainbows. Visit different places.
　Meet with animals.
　Eat lots of delicious food.
　Let's create memories together from now on.
　Enough to make you forget about the bad stuff."

　Really? Really? I am glad!

"With Farne-sama?"

"Yes, of course.
　We will be together from now on. I won't leave you again."

　He said and squeezed me.
　
　I love you too. I love you.
　My precious, precious Farne-sama.
　We'll be together for a long time now. Don't let Riese go.
　Don't try to erase my memories.
　Promise?

"Yes. I promise."

　I was so happy to hear those words that I hugged him tightly.
　Thank you for coming to pick me up. Farne-sama.