Chapter 1, Episode 34 Memory (Other’s POV)

『This is more serious than I thought.』

"……I agree."

　At Cyril's words, Farne also gazed at Riese, who had fallen asleep in his arms.

　The darkness in Riese's heart was more than she had expected.
　If I don't neutralize them, people will harm me and Farne again.
　She assumed so, so she was afraid and wanted to eliminate them.
　But because she couldn't do that, she trembled like that.

　Even if she returned to a place where humans lived in such a state, there was no way she would be able to lead an everyday life.

　……Even if, hypothetically, I were to remove that fear of Riese's little by little from now on.
　Now the more she understands the kindness of people, the more she will know.
　And she will feel guilty that she has killed someone.

『I should have stopped her.
　I'm sorry.』

　Cyril turned her head down as she said.
　At the time, I could not help but hate people because I peeked into Riese's abusive memories.
　If I had thought about it, I would have known that Riese would have a hard time later.
　I decided it was okay to kill humans.
　I thought that because Riese was a saint, a saint would sometimes have to be ruthless enough to kill people to protect the sacred tree.

　It was probably because of the Faralina incident that I originally had a stronger hatred for humans than most.
　Cyril interacted with the saint of Faralina.
　Faralina's saint, the holy beast Clau, was tricked by humans and fought against them, dying while protecting her own child, Libelle.
　Libelle's mother, Saint Claud, had died, Faralina had become a wasteland, and Libelle was entrusted to Cyril.
　Humans were also the enemies of Libelle's birthplace.
　Hence, my resentment toward humans might be stronger than that of other saints.
　Part of me thought that I wanted to let out the grudge I'd been holding with Riese.
　But in the end, she killed a complete stranger.
　With Riese's power, she wouldn't have had to go that far.
　She could have easily neutralized them without killing them.

　Riese herself may suffer later for this.

　She pretended to be calm but was not composed.
　She said she was doing it for Riese's sake, but she was not thinking about Riese at all.
　I thought of everything in terms of saints and my own beast standards.

"……Cyril-sama
　Can the Holy Tree…… Kardiana…… erase the memory of people? "

『……Are you going to take away her memories? 』

"I once asked her what she had enjoyed most in her life.

　Those are all memories with me.
　
　I didn't even take her anywhere.
　She said she was happiest when I was taking care of her.
　Eating stew.
　Being able to take a warm bath.
　Being able to sleep well.

　It was a happy memory for her to be able to have a normal family.
　Almost every memory that she had in life is a memory of ...... chastisement.
　She has lost almost all memories of her own parents.

　Will she still have to suffer in the future just because of the memories of me caring for her?"

　Farne turned his head down, feeling as if he were on the verge of tears.
　If Farne could continue to live only with Cyril and Libelle, she might be able to live an innocent life if they didn't teach her any ethics and didn't allow her to meet people.

　But she was a saint. She had to return to Kardiana.
　If she didn't go back, humans would starve.
　If the harvest disappeared and the land of Kardiana starved, many refugees would be born.
　In search of new green spaces, Kardiana's inhabitants will ravage other sacred tree lands.
　Even if it were against the will of the sacred tree, one can imagine that they would rather invade other lands than starve to death.
　And the most suitable target for this was the lush green land of Eldia, where no humans lived and only animals existed.
　Because of its proximity to Kardiana, it would be the first to be targeted.
　It would cause trouble for Eldia and Cyril who helped them.
　
　It was unlikely that Riese would want to do that.

　It would not change her fate of returning to Kardiana.
　When she would meet people, she would tremble with fear, and even if she got used to it, she would in turn be consumed by the guilt of having killed someone.
　Was it arrogant to think that if she had to suffer either way, she would be happier if she could lose all her memories?

『……You are right.
　Maybe it would be best for Riese to go back to Kardiana and have her memories erased.』

　She will have a hard time for a while because of the loss of her memory, but she is a good and honest girl at heart.
　As long as she has no fear and hatred of people, she will soon be able to get along with others and live a happy life.
　Neither will she have to suffer from the memories of the abuse.
　She has had a hard life for those 11 years, but she is a saint.
　She can live longer and remain younger than a normal human being.
　We can start making up for that now.

"……Then."

『Yeah, Kardiana can erase it.
　But if you're going back to Kardiana, there are some things you need to do.』

"……Sharla and the others."

『Yeah, if I'm going to return that kid, I'm going to have to tear those guys to pieces first.
　Of course, they won't get away with it for free.
　If you're going to do it, be thorough.』

　Farne nodded at Cyril's words.
　If you want Riese to be happy, you have to get rid of those two.
　It was those two who were the source of all this.

---

 ToC  

If you enjoy the translations, you can support me by donations or read “The abused merchant’s daughter” ahead in patreon.

Disabling your ad blocker for this site is also appreciated, worry not, there are no intrusive ads shown.

---